What a strange time we’re living through… There’s a shit storm going down right now, yet here I am, sat in my Pj’s at 11 am on a weekday. Not much is making sense and the life we’re used to living has been turned on its head.
With all this staying in it feels like the perfect time to get things off my chest. If you’re like me, you’ve probably been making jokes and exchanging more memes this past week to last you a lifetime. I like to make light of a bad situation and laugh things off, but I recently found myself getting swept up in the news. After a good few days of fixating on stories in the media, I felt helpless, angry and frustrated. I became nervous and uneasy, that all too familiar vibrating started in my chest (hey anxiety!) and I knew I had to check myself before I go IN on myself and have a full-blown meltdown.
I’m not one to watch the news but after tuning in A LOT this past week, I’ve realized it’s addictive. Especially during a pandemic. I’ve found myself fixated on every update and each time my phone vibrates notifying me of the latest tragedy, I feel a sense of dread which sends me into a cycle of worry. Worry for the victim, the families, the brave healthcare workers on the front line. My mum has quite serious underlying health issues. Will she be ok? what about my sisters? and who are these little shit bags running around deliberately coughing on people, with the sole purpose of instilling more fear? Times like these definitely bring out the best and worst in people.
We control what we put in
Nothing is certain right now but one thing I’m trying to remind myself multiple times a day… is that worrying doesn’t solve or prevent anything. The best thing I’ve done for my mind is to turn off those notifications and stop watching the news. If the best we can do is to stay at home in the fight against this virus, then taking care of our mental health is a top priority. That might even mean muting people on social media for a bit if they’re constantly negative and draining. Yup, I’ve had to do that.
By no means does this mean I’m hiding from the pandemic or pretending it isn’t happening. I’m just choosing to feed my mind with things that uplift me for the sake of my sanity.
Everything is temporary.
The other day, my friend Hannah mentioned how she would never again take being able to visit a coffee shop for granted. I felt that! Yes, it sounds trivial with everything that’s going on. But it’s those little pleasures, like catching up with a mate for a coffee or popping into Space NK to look at things I can’t afford, just being able to leave the house whenever I’d like. These are the things I’m missing.
I’ve decided I’m going to make a conscious effort to embrace this short time I’m spending at home. Let’s make the most out of a difficult time and enjoy each day. I’m using it as a much-needed self-reflection period, a chance to connect with friends and family, to Indulge in forgotten hobbies and bask in slow living for a short moment.
Stay safe x